To a new year of holding ourselves accountable (linky for you to add your resolution post)
(our family prior to our dad passing away December 2011)
Somewhere around mid year, life tried to get the best of me. I just kept feeling like there was literally a tornado of bad around us. From the tornado to loss of nephew’s dad to my health to hunter’s health to Frank’s eye to loss of stepdad to my dad’s health and I am sure more that I haven’t mentioned. I just felt like the moment I picked myself back up something would knock me back down. My mom has always told me “God doesn’t give us more than we can handle”. I learned a valuable lesson by that comment on the day my step-dad was dying. I told my mom remember what you always say and she said sobbing, but I don’t want to handle this.
Life has the power of taking us through situations we thought were unthinkable. After about 9 hours of holding on to stepdad’s fleeting life, you learn just how quick everything can change. You find out your strengths, weakness, and so much about yourself. For a week, I stopped worrying about myself and took care of my mom. I learned a lot about myself in this moment of tradegy. I learned about those make or break moments. I learned about regrets. As a spectator of my mom’s marriage, I realized I didn’t want to not fully forgive knowing that something could happen at any moment. I just don’t want to have any regrets. Life is too short. This year I want to live each day to the fullest like they did. I want to continue to teach my kids empathy. I just want to stop dwelling on the things that I can’t change. It’s that moment you step away and see the big picture that you realize how much you have to be thankful for.
But there’s more…
The problem with having a bad year is that it is hard not to feel like we are owed a better next year. We deserve it, right? Wrong! It is that kind of thinking that sets us up for failure. We get in a frame of mind that it has to happen and when it doesn’t we are discouraged. I believe…
Life is too short to be anything but happy. Love deeply, forgive quickly, take chances, give everything with no regrets and forget the past with exception of what you have learned and remember everything happens for a reason
The difficult part of that is that we don’t have the answers of what, when, why, how, etc… and maybe we never will. However, my New Years Resolution is to realize I am not meant to have those answers just yet. Different outcomes don’t happen because of bad luck, but because it was just never part of the plan.
As for a professional goal for Great Contradictions, I am going to encourage more family activities. Once a month I will have a feature of our family thinking outside the box! Stay Tuned for more
Hope everyone has a Happy New Year! I would love to hear what other’s have planned for their New Years Resolutions! Add your New Years Resolution Post to the linky or comment below…